Dear Grant,
You will learn in time that your mom is a perfectionist and a complete type A personality. This doesn't necessarily mean that you will call me neurotic and crazy once you can speak (or maybe you will) -- this just means that maybe, maybe I can get a little more stressed out than normal people who roll with the punches. (cue your dad's eye-roll).
Case in point -- we get back from New York yesterday and you still have a runny nose, your first "sickness" you've had in your short 6 months of life. The next day, today, I'm on my game. Your baptism is in less than 4 days away, I've got a whole list of things to accomplish and errands to run. I've managed to knock of most of the things on my home-to-do list. Then things start to eat away at my normalcy. My car battery dies (after I've got you dressed and in the car ready to roll), I ran out of your eczema medicine, the place I normally ordered pies from advised me that they were no longer taking orders for Thanksgiving, and then to top it off your dad calls to tell me he won't be able to take off the three days surrounding Thanksgiving I'd been looking so forward to.
Cue the stellar bad mood and impatient neurotic mom. Since this all, of course, happened within 2 hours this morning, I cried and then decided I was going to rise above (ok, maybe after a conversation where my sister schooled me for my type-A craziness). I told myself and you (you probably don't remember) that I was not going to let my mood affect my ability to be the mom you needed me to be, especially since you don't feel well.
So I pulled out my super mom cape for the second time since you were born. The one that gives me an extra dose of patience, an extra ounce of strength to do our walk-arounds, and an extra smile for my little angel.
And you know what? When the cape made me shed my frustration and check my stress at the door, I found out that babies with colds love to be held and rocked, coincidentally two of my favorite things. I found out babies with colds like to read books and snuggle with blankies. And that babies with colds need lots of naps, which frees up my time to clean and get ready for the baptism.
And during the past two naptimes, I reorganized my errands to fit it all in over the next couple of days, I made plans the days Russ now has to work in order to give us something to look forward to, and I ordered some pies from Central Market. And I realized I could get you through the day with the eczema medicine I have. Amazing what happens when I put the super cape on and let go of all the rest of life that gets stuck in my head. (okay, maybe the super cape doesn't really do much, but it gears me up to change my attitude).
hope you feel better soon, sweet baby.
love,
mom
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